-Being a {STAY AT HOME MOM} ... Part 1 of 3-

My {LIFE} at the moment...

5 years ago, if you would have asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up, a [STAY AT HOME MOM] wasn't on my list! Yes I wanted kids one day, but I was never any good at not working for long periods of time. Every time I went on leave for longer than 2 weeks, I went stir crazy, had to find work somewhere, doing something...

I always wanted to be an Interior Designer (still do)... And I always wanted to be a personal trainer on the side (not anymore)... But I didn't ever want to give up my dreams. I was an independent person, ready to take on the world. Andrew and I had decided that we were just going to see what happens, stop trying for kids, and just live our life! Giving up working wasn't something that I was EVER willing to do... I mean NEVER ....

But when I had {JOY} things changed...

My [LIFE]

I went back to work when Joy was 6 weeks old. It was the HARDEST thing I ever had to do. I cried when I would drop her off ...for like a good week or two I cried. I didn't want to leave her! I didn't want to miss out on her life! I was lucky enough to have a girlfriend whom I trusted, to watch my daughter full time. I didn't have to worry about day cares, other kids, and people I didn't know touching my child. She would text me updates throughout the day on how she was doing. She would send me cute pictures of her playing with her kids. It helped make the working process a lot easier. I was very fortunate.... But then she moved...That's how the military works. You don't stay somewhere to long, and you are always leaving the people that you have come so close too. 

It was [HORRIBLE]... {MISERABLE} to say the least. After she left I went through my fair share of bad babysitters. People who were my "friends" who I thought I could trust.... I finally couldn't do it anymore and I requested my chapter packet! That was the best decision I could have ever made!

 

The {LAST} day of the Military!

I have been fortunate enough to have been there for all, and I mean ALL of Joys milestones...

The first time she rolled over

The first time she said "Momma" (First word)

The first time she crawled

The first time she pulled herself up

Her feeding herself

Her words

Her laughter

The first step she took

The first time she bled

Her night time terrors

Her cuddles

Her sick days

Everything.. 

I have been there.

I knew that if I was put in a position where I had to deploy again, I couldn't do it. I wouldn't have been able to leave {MY LITTLE GIRL} She is my why on getting out of the military...

A {GIRL} & Her [DOG]

Now Joy hasn't always been an easy baby.... The first 6 weeks of her life.... Oh My Goodness... Anyone else have a high maintenance baby??? 

I will explain what I mean tomorrow!