...the answer for me is [NO], I don't think so. I can't remember a time in my life (more than a day at least) that I have been fully confident in myself, my body or what I accomplish day to day. Why? Well I don't know just yet. At what point in my life did I become so self conscious? Why do I look for acceptance in others instead of myself? Why can't I be as confident as the people I see on Social Media?
My husband shared this article with me when I was obsessed with losing my baby weight from Joy.
He wrote with it:
"You should be happy now. I like how she said nothing
changed about how she saw herself. I Love You and Baby Joy Loves You
for You. If you will Love you like we do, you will have it all."
Needless to say after reading the article and watching the video I cried. She says "How am I going to teach my beautiful daughter? How am I going to teach her to love her body if her mom can't do the same?" She accomplished her idea of a "perfect body" and she still wasn't happy. She learned to love her self after the fact!
I am soon going to have two daughters that I have to worry about. I have to teach them how to feel good about themselves. I have to be able to teach them that what they see in the magazines isn't always real life, to love the person they see in the mirror instead. I have to be able to explain to them that they need to learn to love themselves before anyone else can love them! But how do you do that if you can't even believe that myself? Whether I was 120lbs or 150lbs, I have never been able to say I am happy with the person I see in the mirror... [EVER].
It is hard to be a girl in the world we live in today. To have everyone around you judge how you look, how you talk, or even how you act. It is hard knowing that you won't make everyone happy all the time. But that isn't an excuse. It has to come from {INSIDE} of you first...
It just has to...
I can't say when I will ever become fully confident in myself. I do know that I am trying every day to feel good from the inside out. I know that by the time Joy and Lorali are at the age where they will start to learn and understand confidence, that I will be able stand there {PROUDLY} and tell them that {I AM HAPPY} with the {PERSON} I am.
My husband loving me the way I am makes me feel confident in myself. My daughter running up to me and calling me Momma makes me feel confident in myself. Soon I will be able to look at the mirror and feel confident in myself... I know this because I know that it comes from the inside out, and that is what I am learning!
